Chriffer/Juliatheena?

[rossshow]

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All that anonymous bullshit was because she's a drunk? Now she's cleaning up. More power to her. Clean and sober may just suit her.

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[pikey]

youre out of your tits.

lol

[juliatheena]

Well, FINALLY!

I was wondering how long it would take you to bring it here.

:1clap8:

[juliatheena]

Oh, and to save you time, I'll provide this link:

Day #4 and going strong. (http://p214.ezboard.com/fourcommoncondition97317frm19.showMessage?topicID= 624.topic)

I made a promise to my boys. I'm not the kind of person to back down from a promise like that. My boys are my strength.

[rossshow]

I KNOW! I was travelling, Sunday Day, up until Monday Night.

Sorry I missed it, sorry for the delay!

Best of luck on getting clean.

[krisinluck]

We haven't ever really talked, Julia, but I know you from your posts. I just wanted to wish you all the best with this, truly. Good job on getting four days - even that can be a challenge. If things get rough, I hope you can find an AA meeting nearby. Even if it doesn't become *the* route to your freedom, it can make contacts that are quite valuable during the process.

Best wishes.
Kris

[juliatheena]

Thanks for the kind thoughts.

Maybe I should explain my type of personality:

I've never been the 'addictive' type.

When I got sick of pot, I quit. Never went back.

When I got sick of meth, I quit. Ditto.

Got sick of smoking. Ditto

Sick of what this is doing to me physically and emotionally. Can't say 'ditto' yet, but hopefully, I can.

I took the AA test. Only answered 3 with a 'yes' answer. The test determined that I had a slight problem with alcohol. Lucky for me, I knew it was time, as in the past.

Now if I could just get rid of this husband person.....

:1rotfl1:

[krisinluck]

That is a good thing then, Julia. You'll be able to beat this too.

[Powerhouse]

Hi, Julia.
I also hope you can get this done and behind you, for you and your kids.
Having been in the Navy, which has a well earned reputation for heavy drinking, I know a little of what you face.
I drank - like a fish. Dancing on tables, all that party crap. Got so bad that it severely affected my work. When it got to the point that several times I had to have friends tell me in the mornings what I had done the previous night, I knew it was time to stop.
And so I did. Just made the decision and did it. Only required a slight lifestlye change to take myself out of the drinking circle, and trust me - NOT drinking in the Navy is not easy.
I just started hanging around other non-drinkers and had a LOT more fun - well, at least I could remember it the next morning. ;)
Nowadays, I 'can' drink, I just don't. No reason to, and it really doesn't tickle my taste buds like chocolate milk does. :)
I may have two beers during the year for the odd occassion, but that's just life.

Good luck with it!!

Mike.

[tekobari]

You sound as though you're a light user, julia, although even light use can be tough to break. It's an addictive drug, after all. However, if you were able to put down all that other stuff and not pick it back up, there's every reason to believe you can with this, too.

My alcoholic friends never had any luck with anything but AA. I went to meetings with them and was very impressed by the honesty of people there and support they gave each other. Great program! Good luck, girl.

[marble]

I wish you all the best in the world in meeting your goal for sobriety, Julia. :)

[Happy]

Good luck, Julia. Best wishes to you and your family.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v104/Happy14/foryou.gif

[chynna]

Best of luck, Julia. :1clap5:

[juliatheena]

Thanks again.

Last night, cooking was difficult. When cooking in detail, I would always sip on a glass of wine or 2. I missed that last night, not so much the buzz, but the sipping/flavor part.

I'm wondering if non-alcohol wine/beer is appropriate at this time.....

[evilanggellene]

I'm glad you made this decision Julia. Give yourself time. You'll succeed.

[saabsister]

I'm wondering if non-alcohol wine/beer is appropriate at this time.....

Good luck with your decision to quit using alcohol. I think it would probably be better to skip the non-alcoholic wine/beer at this stage because the taste is going to be too similar and tempting. Maybe you could find some music you liked to listen to while cooking instead.

[rosiebud]

Thanks for the kind thoughts.

Maybe I should explain my type of personality:

I've never been the 'addictive' type.

When I got sick of pot, I quit. Never went back.

When I got sick of meth, I quit. Ditto.

Got sick of smoking. Ditto



I wish you the best of luck!
But I"m not sure if the "not an addictive personality type" is very accurate. It would seem that all you're doing is substituting one addiction for another.

Perhaps this perspective from an outsider will keep you from simply substituting something else for the drinking.

Good luck in making wise decisions for both you and your family - and sticking to them.

[Kashtin]

Good luck, and hang in there.

[dcj]

Wow, that's really brave of you.

Not just to do it, but to post about it online. You've got to be one strong lady, and I'm betting you'll make it. HOPING you will, and if your resolve weakens, I also hope you remember there's lots of us applauding quietly in the background.

I've had some hard times lately, and I admit to being drawn, from time to time, to doing things I know aren't good for me (puffs 67th cigarette o' the day).

Sometimes, I say - hell, whatever gets ya through the (dark) night. Easier times, I hold my chin up and say nothing's gonna bring me down. But it does, and next time that happens, I'll think about you. Yeah, YOU, and know that if you can do THIS, I can do whatever I need to do without hurting myself.

LOL, so now you're a role model! Good for you, you wear it well.

Rooting for ya,
D.

[juliatheena]

Rosibud:

[qutoe]When I got sick of pot, I quit. Never went back.

When I got sick of meth, I quit. Ditto.

Got sick of smoking. Ditto[/quote]

I see where you are coming from. Let me give you a timeline on all that and then you'll know where I'm coming from:

I started smoking pot when I was 17. Never really got hardcore with it as it dulled my senses too much. I quit around 25.

Speed came into my life shortly thereafter. I started smoking about then too. This kept on until around 30, then just got sick and tired and stopped both.

I drank occasionally, but not my favorite thing. I was always prone to hangovers. I would go for weeks without a drink. I never kept it in my house.

Fast forward to age 40. (I'm 45 now) I had quit my job at age 33 to stay home with my son. Then came son's #2 and #3. I have spent the last 12 years AT HOME without working or having adult like conversation. I did belong to baby groups and stuff, but all we talked about was BABIES BABIES BABIES. No adult stimulation whatsoever. I was impossible for me to get an outside job. I spent most days never even leaving the house. The alcohol slowly crept in. The only entertainment I had.

The boys are now 11, 9 and 6. My youngest will be entering 1st grade in a few weeks. Now I can finally have some time to MYSELF again. Prior to getting married and having a family, I had lived by myself since I was 18, traveled by myself, worked and supported myself. I got lost in there somewhere. The me that used to be ME was put on the backburner.

Now it's time for ME again. That may sound selfish, but I miss my privacy, my solitude, doing things BY MYSELF.

Ok.....What a rant that was.

:o

[kim]

good luck juliatheena...

[rca001]

Not to sound like Robin or anything, but Juliatheena, that's not a rant, that's a fine piece of self-analysis that takes many people years to get to sitting in weekly sessions with therapists!
Good for you, not only are you quitting, you know why, how, and what you're doing next. Keep it up,
rca001

[boardbimbo]

Speaking of cold turkey, they are weaning me off of dura gesic, down from 300 micfrograms every three days to 275, and would you believe I have been in withdrawal? Nausea, vomiting, shakes, yawning, heebie-jeebies--I wish I had never gone on this stuff.

[juliatheena]

Hi there BB! How have you been? I've been thinking about you and how things are going.

Withdrawel...ugh. Sounds postively nasty. I remember when I stopped the speed, all I did was sleep and eat. I had no probs with stopping smoking. None with pot either.

This time, all I am having problems with is sleeping. I do get to sleep, but once I do get to sleep, all is well. My neck and shoulder muscles are still in knots, probably because there isn't the 'relaxation' factor anymore.

Hang in there Sandy...I'm routing for you!

[DareMe]

Julia, I remember that picture of you and your guys on the log ride (I think) at Disneyland, at that's how I've always thought of you. Arms thrown over your head, yelling, "Bring life ON!!"

I think that picture personifies who you are! I know you'll be successful kicking the booze because you tackle things head on and this won't be an exception. It's so important to get back to ourselves when we get off-track, and you're well on your way to doing that. You're doing great!

Monika

[socrfan2]

Good luck.

Habit or addiction, they can be hard to break.

[chococake]

I think if you stopped using speed you can over come this. Best wishes to you and your family.

[juliatheena]

Ok....one week here. I have to admit though, last night, I drank 1/2 a beer (in 1 chug...I was thirsty) and I through the rest out. I DID NOT like the taste or the way it made me feel AT ALL.


So that's that. I'm done.

Yesterday, I went to the Vitamin Shoppe and stocked up on herbs and vitamins. The new use for my shotglass is to shoot my vitamins and herbs.

My mind is clearer, I'm sleeping better, and I have a better frame of mind. Who woudda thought?

:1kitty4:

[tekobari]

BB, this is a little OT. But what is duragesic--a painkiller? What's in it that would cause withdrawal symptoms?

[*dm*]

Not to step on toes, but the answer to what Duragesic is, is it's a deriviative of morphine. It's actually called Fentanyl and is HIGHLY addictive. I was on it for about 2 years, but only required 75 micrograms at the hight of my pain. Even that knocked me on my butt. I weaned myself off of it, and now only take vicodin for my pain. I can't even imagine 300 micrograms!

BB, it's hard to break the habit, but by weaning slowly and working with your doctor, it can be done. I also found that using Xanax helped with the "heebie-jeebies", of course only with the help of my doctor though! And out of all the pain killers that I have been on in the last 4 years(almost 5 now), I find that vicodin is the most addictive for me...And this comes from someone that has been on oxycontin, morphine, percocet, duragesic, and valium. I am now weaning off of vicodin and learning alternate ways of dealing with the chronic pain that I have...I made a decision a couple of months ago that I don't want to live in a constant haze for the rest of my life, and now that I know that I will always have this pain, I can learn to cope with it in other ways.

Good luck to EVERYONE that is trying to break habits! :)

[*dm*]

sorry for the totem....I meant to add on to that other post that Duragesic is a patch that you wear for 3 days at a time and it gives you a constant flow of medication through your skin. That way you always have fairly regular pain relief, and usually a "breakthrough" medication is prescribed along with the patch to help out when the pain gets too extreme for the patch alone...usually it's percocet or vicodin that is used for the breakthrough. And depending on the source of the pain, a muscle relaxant is also used...something along the lines of Robaxin or Valium to help with muscle spasms.

Monica

[boardbimbo]

Thank you so much. I have been crying all weekend. I thought the panic attacks were back, and I thought, I cannot live like this. It's just the drug, right????

[toollady]

BB,

Yes, it's just the drug. A temporary inconvenience while you wean yourself of it's hold it has on you.

{{Sandy}}

[sibs ling]

Hang in there BB!!

You ARE strong. You've proven it in the past.

:1hug3:

'ling
(who'll be thinking about you today - you CAN do this)

[Buffalo]

Hi im Brent/Buffalo and I am a fucking drunk lol.... been dry for 15 years...did it for my kids they saved my life. Good luck and you can beat this!

[TurtleTrax]

BB - Like everyone else, I'm sure it's the withdrawal that's giving you the panic attacks. That is such a STRONG patch, and I've read that it's highly addictive.

Take care of yourself, and stop in for support WHENEVER you need it.

[*dm*]

BB, if you're concerned about the way the withdrawls are going, PLEASE talk to your doctor. At the very least you can call your pharmacist and ask them about symptoms and ways to control the symptoms.

take care!

[boardbimbo]

My doctor is of limited use--he wants me to go into the hospital for two months and be weaned. I cannot do that.

Good for you, Buffalo--you gave your kids the best gift. You know that.

[Powerhouse]

Ok....one week here. I have to admit though, last night, I drank 1/2 a beer (in 1 chug...I was thirsty) and I through the rest out. I DID NOT like the taste or the way it made me feel AT ALL.


So that's that. I'm done.


Good for you in throwing it out. Keeping in mind how much you don't care for the taste of it will be a big help in choosing more flavorful non-alcoholic drinks.
When you tell yourself that you need a drink or that you've earned a drink - always append that with 'a pepsi' or 'tea'. Lots of good things to drink that won't fuck with your head. :)

[juliatheena]

Good advice PH....thanks!

As the days go by, it's becoming easier and easier. I'm sleeping like a log. WOW does that feel good....to feel sleepy, get into bed, lay there and eventually drift off. My DH got up this morning and 3am, took a shower, even used the blow dryer. I didn't hear a thing!

:1chirol_r

[rossshow]

Guess that whole no drinking at home thing's all done?

http://s2.excoboard.com/exco/thread.php?forumid=92220&threadid=589100

So one good thing about my day: I'm sitting here with an icy cold Newcastle Brown Ale and some black pepper jack Doritos. Mmmm.....good!

:1beer1: :1beer2: :biere_eto

[marble]

:(.